Not sure how many missed me, I know I’m still young in this community and not contributing that much but I surely missed you people, the little things going on around here, the warm feeling that everyone here is nice and always trying to help, and the screenshots which I enjoy mostly daily.
Due to my past substances and mostly alcohol abuse, when I’m not careful and slip too much I get acute pancreatitis attacks. This was my 4th one and I’ve been in the hospital for a week. Man I can surely tell you I was between the two worlds this time, wasn’t sure I’d be able to survive this one.
Tooth pain can be nasty, some say kidney stones pain can be the worst but in my mind out of all human organs I don’t think there is a more horrible pain than that from a full on pancreatitis attack. Just imagine this, it was on my mind, a pain so bad that makes you think that you just want it to end, no matter how, it poisons your mind to the point that you don’t even care if you’ll survive, you just want it to end.
And for two full days, anything they did and all the IV pain medication they gave me wasn’t working on me as it should normally work on other people, and they didn’t want to put me to sleep as the docs were saying it would be more dangerous and my body should be awake and working to heal.
I’ve been out since monday and already back to normal, trying to fix the holes in my business and smoothing things with the unhappy clients caused by me missing and breaking promises, but this kind of experience leaves a deep mark and make you look at life from a different angle.
Since this is the only community where I still post, just wanted to share my latest experience.
And guess what was the first thing I did when I got home? And I’m not kidding, it was “baph -u” then went to bed
Keep safe, enjoy life!